There are days when I think " I got this!" and then there are days when I think " ARGH!...I don't know what I am doing?!?" Earlier in the day I felt like I had this covered. As I am sitting down to get things going, with some things I feel like I am in the drivers seat, becoming more organised and I will have everything planned. Then I feel like a big wall just came out of no where and I hit it full force. Now I have stopped dead in my tracks.
I'm not sure what to do next or where to go. Thoughts of " What links do I put in here?' 'Is this something I have to change every week?' 'How does she ( mentor teacher) do it?' "'How long before I will be confident about all of this?' The list goes on and all of my worries and insecurities are flooding my brain and it isn't very conducive to getting the job done. So the only natural thing to do is to take a step back and blog about it right?!?
The good thing about this is that I get a real dose of what setting up your class really entails. The frustrating part is when you hit a roadblock but you have to keep pushing forward because you have deadlines to meet and future things to prepare for.
What I need to do is admit that as much as I want to show that I can do it on own, I need help and to remind myself that asking for support should be seen as a strength as it is a tool I can use to chip away at the tasks at hand. Just breathe. Find ways to relax my mind so that it doesn't get out of control and gets overwhelmed with thoughts of doom.
